Too Small

Twice this week I've had friends generously offer me clothing and twice I've had to say thank you anyway, but the clothing was too small. Aurgh. I think it was awesome of my friends to offer, but I'm frustrated with myself because I'm not as healthy and fit as I should be and the size I want to be. I'm bummed that I'm not one of those women who can lose a ton of weight just from breastfeeding. I'm also feeling a little sensitive about why I feel the need to stuff myself with warm, rich, fattening foods after a birth. What's that really about? After this week's birth, I stopped for cheese enchiladas to take home and then I went on a dairy binge for the next 24 hours. It was satisfying at the time, but it totally set me back on my resolution to eat healthier. What gives? I know I gotta start taking better care of myself. I think these recent clothing failures are signs I'm probably supposed to be paying attention to. Alright, universe, I hear you. I'll try harder.