Miscarriage

I just experienced the first miscarriage of my midwifery career. 

I've provided support multiple times as a doula and even as a friend, but being the actual primary care provider and actually seeing the baby that passed was quite a different experience.

I feel a little stunned and really sad.  Not sure if I should do some serious cleaning as a way to decompress, or watch an Outlander episode with some junk food.  Or maybe I should just go to bed.

I'm feeling a little lost without T and I am so ready for her to come home.  She'll be back in one week.

I'm gonna snuggle my baby girl extra close tonight.